Step away from the Chocolate

Well it finally happened.

I didn't just fall off the wagon; the wagon was going 70 mph, down a windy road, and I JUMPED at full force!

Up until my doctors appointment yesterday I had gained 23 lbs, which is really impressive considering at that point I was 29 weeks along and I swear I think I gained 23 lbs with Claire within like a month of getting pregnant!

I have been so proud of myself for eating healthy (I actually craved salads, fruit, and healthy dinners).

Well something happened in the last two weeks and if it wasn't JUNK, UNHEALTHY, AND FULL OF STUFF THAT NEITHER I NOR THE BABY NEED, I didn't want to eat it. Seriously it was horrible, Easter candy on sale at the grocery store was screaming at me, last time I went shopping I ate _x_ number of ice cream cones before I even was done shopping! I went to the discount bread store the other day and realized I could buy six cupcakes for the price of two if I bought them in a box, so I did! I came home froze what I hadn't already ate on my 8 minute drive home, and managed to finish the rest of them within 15 hours. I have had headaches from eating sugar, did it stop me? My solution eat more!!

I was nervous going to the doctor yesterday for my check up, I really was, I thought I had gained 5 lbs and my doctor is REALLY REALLY strict when it comes to weight so I thought 5 lbs was going to get me a good lecture...so imagine the lecture I got when I got on the scale and learned I had gained TEN POUNDS in three weeks??????!!!!!

The nurse even said "Oh you are gonna get it Mrs. S." My reply "Oh I know!!!"

Claire and I sat in the room waiting for the doctor to come in....the door opened slowly and I was afraid to look up at her. She did lecture me, she even told my 3 year old to tell mommy "NO!" if I was eating cupcakes or chocolate. Which in itself is hilarious considering my daughter has eating lots of junk lately too (when she used to NEVER EVER get this kind of stuff unless she was with grandparents), so we will see how effective this is going to be.

To be honest even I was mortified, TEN POUNDS! That is a baby! Claire and I walk about 2-3 miles every day and I think we are going to have to take the hilly route (with her fussing I am sure) and extend our length at least to make myself feel better. Today I packed up remaining junk and put it in a bag, and my d.h. took it to his work for his employees. I felt like I was loosing my mind when he left this morning, seriously it wasn't pretty! I have a headache right now as I type and I am insistent that I need some chocolate, I have a feeling I am going to be detoxying over the next few days and the mood may be a bit stressful in the house...pray for J. and Claire.